Every second, every minute, and almost every night she was crying.. crying.. and crying by her own self in the four wall and cold room. Many times she was scolded by the guard because of her voice that might bother other people but still her tears can't stop from fall. She not upset about the decision that made her in jail. She just miss like crazy to her one and only child. It's more hurting and painful when a mother had to be apart with her baby. Even this painful can't compare when she lose her pride and virginity.
"I miss you, my dear."
During the time she was in prison, she's not all alone. She made a friend, Pieka and Tom. They're a good friend. Even they were bad and not good initially. Umi Zafwa's again make it right to open Pieka and Tom's mind and heart. They promise to changed and be a good girl and better person when they got release from there.
Her father and stepmother never visit her even once. She really feel sad about it. She not blame them. She know her stepmother might be upset and disappointed about what she had done. Even she not in guilty and sin like her stepmother think. Her husband, Alex also did not come to visit her. Maybe her husband don't want to show to her child the bad side about me. Maybe Alex don't want her child see I am prisoner single mother.
Jason, her only friend always come to visit her there. Each time he come, he will tell her about the condition of her child. Her name is Fatin. According to Jason's story, she was growth up with healthy and beauty girl. She can read al-Quran. She know how to wear hijab. She's a kind daughter but not socializing much. She like to stay in the house. Umi Zafwa relieved to hear that but she can't take it anymore. She so hard missing her child that she no chance to breastfeeding and pour all her love to her own baby.
"Mama miss you."
"Mama miss you."
She know she had no chance to do that. What she can do is crying, crying and pray to Allah to protect and give a blessing over her baby. Now, she all alone. Pieka and Tom have been released. And, the day have come. She is tremble, afraid when the death penalty was prescribed. But she redha with all she have been through. "I believe in Allah's plan is the best of the best." Teardrop fall and she pray in heart.
Over twenty years she in jail. That's a long enough time to built herself, to rise up her feeling and get to move on by her own memories and all the things she had experience. Now, it's time for her to find happiness. And the only things in this world she want the most is her child and husband. That's her only happiness.
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"You kill Katherina! You stupid bitch! Go to hell!"
"You don't have to remind me. I know what to do with your child. Just like what you've done to my brother to change his own religion, you the one cause of my dead parents in tragic way.. you have to remember that, Umi Zafwa! You have to mind it how deep my revenge on you!"
"About your child, I know how to teach her in my way. I'll be grateful because my revenge will be reply to your child. Even if it's not strange when her own mother make sin with her own child. Like me too, with your loved child. Maybe she become beauty girl one day. She can replace late Katherina after what you have done. It's fair enough, right? I'll make sure one day.. you will smell the body of the sinner from your own child after she lose sanctity.. like you."
She was afraid what was Alex threaten comes true. She disguised as a maid in Alex's house called Qhalida. There also one lady take care of that house, named Bonda. Bonda told all the stories about Alex and her child, Fatin during she was not around. Her child were safe and know she was studying out from country. Umi Zafwa so proud of what Alex do to her child. She think Bonda doesn't know 'Qhalida' is the wife of owners house their work.
And there's one girl always together with Alex, Raisya. That young and sexy girl looks close and intimate. Who is she? Why her face does look the same like the little girl in the frame she saw on the living room? No.. no. She's not her child. Her name is Raisya. Not Fatin. But why Bonda told that Alex were lost his memories because of accident a few years ago? Is it true Alex got amnesia? Is it true Alex forgot about his own child, Fatin and herself as his wife? She believed Alex got an accident because now Alex have to use a wheelchair to live. But...
One by one all Alex belonging such as cars, company and house were dragged by banks. His company was bankrupt because loss of his ability to take care anymore. Raisya, the girl he depends on run away and said the lie that she will come back one day.
Qhalida, the only one left. She willing to take care of him. Alex doesn't like her for initially. But Qhalida don't want to give up. She so touched about what Alex have sacrifices to her child, Fatin. So it's time for her to take good care of her husband and change him to be a better person. Also want to make her husband in love with her. She know she's insane, accepting someone who wanting to destroyed her life long time ago. But she have to admit. She already in love and missing her own husband. No one know about it.
to be continued... #Penulisan2u from NuNa
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